My Answer: Christian Era

Question:

totally keeping it anon for my own privacy of people reading. But always wanting to ask. Do you find your christian friends treat you diff now that you live with your gf? was it diff. to do given your background? If inappropriate delete 🙂

Answer:

I would say that yes, some of my Christian “friends” do treat me differently now. It’s natural to treat someone differently when their habits change. My habits changed a lot. I don’t go to church, I live with a girl I’m not married to, and I think I’m better for it.

When I went to church, I look back and see me doing things I am very ashamed of. My relationships were not all very healthy. There were a few, I must say, that I wish I could have now, but I realize that moving forward means that sometimes you have to leave things behind.

At the end of what I call my “Christian era” I was looking for something that wasn’t there. I was acting like my life was almost over and like I needed certain things to happen soon or I’ll have failed. This was, obviously, not the case. I wanted things so badly I pretended they were there when they weren’t. Things like happiness, and things like love.

Then, I met a girl. A wonderful, amazing girl. She didn’t pressure me. Not to go to church, not to avoid church. She wanted to know me. She wanted to know who I was. That’s when I realized that I didn’t know who I was.

So I spent some time just being me. Finding out who I was. The more I thought about it, the more I realized that the church, while great in many ways and by far one of the best influences on my life, was not really my long term home. I needed to move on.

So, do they treat me differently? Yes. And who can blame them? But… was it difficult? I would have to say it was the easiest, most natural thing in my world.

M A

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2 thoughts on “My Answer: Christian Era

  1. I think your post is very well written. Especially the last paragraph, I awoke from my christian era after studying philosophy, and when you reach that conclusion through your own logic, in your own process and at your own pace, it feels like the most natural thing in the world.

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